Just a poem ...

Frost

If only I could freeze my heart
so that no feeling would hurt me
if only I could frost my soul
so that no love I could give
and no more pain would feel me
but if I could not freeze this heart
nor this soul
then I will pray for my clever men
to still my heart and soul
and pour it with a flesh cool
and start my spirit to move on my new life

The Quotes of Life

"Life is like music; it must be composed by ear, feeling, and instinct, not by rule."
-Samuel Butler

"The indispensable first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want."
-Ben Stein

"In the arena of human life the honors and rewards fall to those who show their good qualities in action."
-Aristotle

"Four things come not back: the spoken word, the speed arrow, the past life, the neglected opportunity."
-Proverb

When things need to be balance

In every aspects of life, sum people always have dreams, hopes, expectations or anything that they wishes to come to their life. manusia tidak pernah lepas dari yang namanya harapan, keinginan, dan cita-cita. baik dalam lingkungan kerja, cinta, pendidikan. semua keinginan2 itu selalu dan selalu ada.

Terkadang kita melupakan apa sebenernya hakikat dari kehidupan itu sendiri. semua mimpi yang terwujud berawal dari satu tindakan kecil. ketika kita ingin sukses, ya kita kerja keras untuk itu. begitu pula ketika kita ingin membina suatu hubungan khusus,yah kita harus memulai. meskipun dengan hal2 kecil.
the essence of life is actually every little moments we spent in it.

Manusia diciptakan secara sempurna. dengan hati dan pikiran. segala yang kita lakuin mau gak mau gak hanya menggunakan satu dari itu. gue pikir everything needs to be balance, segala tindakan atau keputusan yang kita ambil tentunya juga harus seimbang satu sama lain. manusia bukan robot, bukan juga binatang. manusia diciptakan tuhan dengan indera dan organ2 yang saling terpaut dan melengkapi satu sama lain.

Di hidup pasti ada moment yang menyakitkan, menyenangkan, pahit, sedih, bahagia dst. tapi yah setiap moment itu emang moment yang harus di lewati. ada saatnya kita jomblo, punya pacar, seneng, mesra2an, putus, kesepian, ada moment disaat manusia menikah, punya anak, bahagia, putus asa, cerai, bangkit kembali, tumbuh dewasa, lebih kuat, ada saatnya manusia dilahirkan dan mati. anggap lah setiap moment yang kita lewati hanya berlangsung satu kali dalam seumur hidup kita dan setiap moment berfungsi untuk menyeimbangkan moment lainnya.

Gue pribadi berpikir bahwa mungkin sebenarnya hidup manusia terus berjalan dinamis karena 2 hal. mereka diciptakan dengan akal dan emosi/ hati dan pikiran. dan pastinya setiap tindakan pasti punya konsekwensi masing2. indeed apalagi yang kita takutkan? every lives has its moments, every human has its brains and hearts. dan akhirnya semua harus dijalankan secara seimbang.

Dalam suatu film, ada satu orang perempuan dan satu orang laki-laki berdialog, sang perempuan menceritakan pengalamannya yang menurut gue cukup menyentuh:

"I had worked for this old man and once he told me that he had spent his whole life thinking about his career and his work. And he was fifty-two and it suddenly struck him that he had never really given anything of himself. His life was for no one and nothing. He was almost crying saying that." -a courtesy from a movie called "Before Sunrise"-

In the end, we are all just ordinary people. punya hati dan pikiran juga. masalahnya adalah: apakah kita bisa menggunakannya keduanya secara seimbang?

Just "came back" from the past...

I just came back from Bandung from friday till sunday... wat a nice and also a tiring trip
i went there with a bunch of my friends from Finland and sum of my cousins and my bro:
Galih, Anggi, Citra, Yayie, Indah, Otto, Sadit, Cisund, Agi, David (Galih's relative.)
then i realized that we just went back from the past... to the precious moments we've been experienced in Finland, the 24 hours cruise, Sweden's trip or even just hang around in down town.

On Friday: Gue, mary, Otto, Indah, Sadit cabut dari Bintaro (rmh Mary) jam 21.30 WIB. kita konvoy 2 mobil sama mobilnya David. sampe sana sekitar jam 23.30 WIB.
terus ketemuan sama Cisund ( whose just arrive to Indo 2 weeks ago.. I couldnt believe we've been separated for more than 2 years!), terus kita makan dipinggiran.. dan baru sampe rumah Cisund, di Batununggal jam 01.30 malem.
rumah Cisund kebetulan kosong, bokap nyokapnya masih tugas di Finland. malem itu, gw tidur jam 02.30 malem (gk ikutan yang laen begadang smp tlalu pagi hehe padahal itu mah juga udah pagi yah?!)

On Saturday: gue bangun jam 10, makan di Dapur Sunda baru jam 12. after the lunch time, then the long f.o's haunting trip begins. from 13.00- 15.30 there was about 6 f.o's we entered, anak2 pada mencar berburu dan berburu teruzzzz..
jam 15.30 kita ngumpul lagi, ketemu sama Yayie yg baru nyusul dari Jakarta krn harus ikut uts dulu. setelah itu,kita lanjut ke Babe.
setelah berpusing2 ria ngeliat baju2 dll, kita makan sebentar di pinggiran deket rumah Cisund. dan setelah maghrib baru deh sampe di rumah Cisund.
At night, jam 20.30 everybody got ready to go out. we went to The Valley, a very romantic place for couples with worst service.... wakakka i mean the view was real nice for couples! and never ask about the damn slow service huh!
setelah itu, kita tiba di rumah cisund kurang lebih pk 24.00. the funny thing is that all the couples sleep first. and all the non-couples sat around, singing, play guitar , etc til 03.30 in the morning! there was Me, my bro Sadit, Galih, David, Yayie, and Cisund.

On Sunday, I woke up at 10. i guess from that time i began to sick. i lost my voice, flu abis deh. kita ngga ngabisin waktu lama2, setelah mandi, packing dll, kita berangkat dari rumah jam 12.00 dan makan di Batagor Riri , met mba Bulan (one of my cousin), Luma and Arya (my friends from Finland and Germany), went to the next f.o called Cargo and the last visit was Kartika Sari.
Gue, Otto, Sadit, Citra, Yayie
balik dari Bandung jam 16.30 dan sampai jakarta sekitar jam 18.30. nganterin my cousins; Yayie dan Citra pulang di daerah Jatibening dan sekalian makan malem di rumahnya.
sampe rumah jam 21.30. dan ternyata di rumah lagi ada sepupu gue, Ali dan istrinya lagi mampir. alhasil kita ngobrol2 dulu sampe malem. dan gue baru bisa tidur lelap sesudah gue nulis blog ini.

What a tiring day... but im very grateful becoz we are at last reunited again, came back from the past, and still carry on the most precious friendship we've always had.
loads of love