Uncertainity

I'm not very sure whether u feel bored to read my journal about self-discovery or anything like that... but, i just cant help my self to write down sum of certain thoughts on this blog, since i'm still recovering the true personalities and the values within my self...

i am one of those girls who always think twice about everything... even for some small things like "which dress should i wear today?" or "which food should i eat first?" and when it comes to bigger problem it gives impact to most things in my life. as a result i often get lost in the state of uncertainity...
fortunately, i am a girl who is always willing to learn. i hate to be stuck in one problem especially when the root of the problem comes from within my self.

what makes us feel uncertain about many things in life? sometimes, to be able to change our self we need to understand what and why we do/do not do it in certain way.
many of us afraid of one thing call "consequence". we are too afraid to react or to make decision becoz of certain things like "what mite happen to me if i pick this or that?" infact, for me, life is full of consequences... every or any decisions we make must consist of the good or the bad consequences. there is no such a "perfect" life happen to anyone.

besides that, sumtimes people tend to be afraid of certain feeling called "regret feeling" like "why did i choose this? if only i didnt choose this way... it should have not happen" and i guess people who think like that most of the times are people who cannot take anything as a lesson learnt...

this life is about process... sometimes we grow by the sadmess, tears, and sorrows.
there is no such thing to be regret of...
sometimes, i 'd like to think, what if god only created us for today? so that we forced to live for just TODAY? without the fear of the future, or what mite destiny brings to us? or what is our future mite be?

it must have been very exhausting to think too much about "the consequences" of the future .
let's just imagine, u are going to stay over in some place for 3 days, and it's due to a holiday (which the trip should have brought so much fun), before u go, things are prepared perfectly or even over prfectly. u prepared the 3 days trip like u are goin to stay there FOREVER... with all the thoughts "what if it's..., or ..." and at the end u become stressed out about all the small things u shouldnt worry about...

i mean there are just time for everything...and i guess we better let ourselves to go with the flow sometimes.. doing what we feels like to do (off course with no meaning of disturbin anyone)... this life is just a process to be growing up... if we carry all the future problems in our head... i'm sure our head is gonna burst out someday! hehe.

so why do we let ourselves lost in uncertainities? why can't we just live our life for TODAY and let everything flow naturally?